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Undreffing, Say the 4th Pfalm.

Kneeling down before stepping into bed.

Good Lord, pardon my fins against thy love: let me lie down this night reconcile to thee my God, and in peace and charity with all the world."

At lying down.

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Lord, pardon my unworthiness of the leaft of all thy mercies, particularly of these • comfortable conveniences which thy fatherly • tenderness doth provide for my repofe; fanctify them to me, O gracious Lord, and • comfort all that want them; all that are now in pain, fickness, trouble, forrow, and, all that labour in the agony of death. Grant that I may lie down with thee, and rise up with thee, and when I awake up, whether in • life or in eternity, O let me be prefent with thee. Fill my heart with thy fear and love, • and vouchsafe to be the first and laft in all my thoughts; that whether fleeping or waking, living or dying, I may be thine. O thou fhepherd of Ifrael, who never ⚫ flumbereft nor fleepeft, vouchfafe to watch over me, and keep me this night, and pre ferve me from fin and danger, and all allufions of the enemy, for thy infinite • mercies. Amen.'

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Waking in the night.

I adore thy condescending Majefty, O my God, who vouchsafeft thyself to be the pilot of the fhip, the charioteer of the chariot, which carries me lying at eafe and peace, through the feas and wilderness of this night: thou art near me, and I defire to speak to thee, to bless thee, and adore thee, who art so near to me. Amen.'

Waking in the morning.

O my God, who haft vouchfafed to carry me through the feas of this night, and to fet me down in peace and fafety on the fhore of this day, where I would be, among my acquaintance of the things of this world; let me not enter into converfation with them, till I have first paid my humble homage to thee, my most adorable and gracious God. I lift my heart to thee.'

Firft getting out of bed, kneeling.

To thee, my most adorable preserver, I humbly offer up my preferved felf; my body, my foul, my members, my fenfes, my faculties, my thoughts, my words, my • defires, my inclinations, my affections, my actions, to be governed, guided, and fanctified by thee, and to be made conformable to thy holy will this day and always. Amen.' Wafbing.

Washing.

Wafh me thoroughly from my wicked< nefs, and cleanfe me from my fin. O wafh me with thy precious blood, O moft gracious Lord Jefus, who haft loved us, and washed us from our fins. Except thou wash me, I have no part in thee. Thou haft made me fenfible that I ftand in need of thy amazing condefcenfion to be washed from the ftains which I daily contract, that thou mayeft engage me to practife daily the fame condefcenfion to my Chriftian brethren. Amen.'

Kneeling down in the day-time.

"O my God, to thee I humbly offer up myself, accept of me graciously to be thine in thy dear Son. Thou haft made me what I am, and given me what I have; I live by thee, O that I may live to thee. By thee I am this moving body, and this thinking ⚫ foul. O that both may pay homage to thee; thou upholdeft and fuftaineft me ⚫ every moment, I am a living monument of thy mercy, O that I may be a living monument of thy praise: glory be to thee, O Lord, moft high. Amen.'

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Thus did Mr. Bonnell discharge the great duty of prayer, in every part of it, both public and private: and as he prayed without ceafing; fo he was a conftant and devout gueft at the Lord's table; and therefore I

now

now come to fhew what his practice was, with refpect to the holy facrament of the Lord's fupper.

He was very early touched with a lively fenfe of his obligations to commemorate our Saviour's paffion, in that holy mystery; and I find from his own meditations, that as he improved in knowledge and years, his defires after that divine feaft grew ftronger ftill. For there he found all the endearing comforts of religion; God's goodness difplayed, and his juftice fatisfied: the contemplation of which, gives the trueft peace and joy to humble and penitent minds.

A great part of his private writings confift of meditations preparative to the Sacrament, or thanksgivings after it: fo that for feveral years of his life, hardly a week paffed over, but he put down fome communion thoughts in writing; fome meditation or prayer upon the love of God to mankind; or fome part of our Saviour's life or fufferings; efpecially during the late troubles, when he needed the fupports of religion. moft, and feems to have enjoyed them in a greater degree than at

ather times.

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After his fettling in Dublin, his conftant practice, for many years, was, to communicate twice every month: befide all the folemn times, when the holy facrament is adminiftered. But fuch longing defires had he after that facred memorial of our Saviour's love; that he could not allow himfelf to want it, when

ever it might be had; fo that at last, he received every Lord's-day.

Though his life was a conftant preparation for the Holy Communion, yet he had very ftrict and particular retirements in order to put his mind into that divine frame, which he judged fo neceffary for that near and folemn. approach to God: and thefe happy retirements were employed in ftrict examinations of his life, and a severe enquiry after his smallest failings; and the warmest meditations upon the love of God, and bitter paffion of our bleffed Saviour. And in his latter years, he lamented nothing more, than that his time was fo taken up with bufinefs, that his retirements were interrupted; and confequently, his thoughts not fo much his own as they ufed to be and particularly, it troubled him that he was often forced to be late at his office upon Saturdays, left his going to the Sacrament next day, might have an ill effect upon his fervants; and tempt them to presume too far, and approach the Lord's table without fufficient preparation : "For though," as he would fometimes fay, "I fteal minutes at my office, they are not enough to fatisfy myfelf, much lefs to give good example to

others."

As it was his great study to prepare himfelf aright, for the Holy Sacrament, that fo he might come to it with a truly penitent heart, a lively faith, and inflamed affections; fo during the whole adminiftration, fo intenfe

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