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tors to send in their original sums. As f was called out of the office for a moment, my son, European; cast his eye upon the honest scrawl, holding it in his hand at my return. Father said he, this seems a thing so very rare, that I am astonished you should advertise, requesting persons to pay attention to a case so stale. "Son, I cannot rest satisfied except I discharge the debt, I still owe in point of justice; therefore why should I not have the pleasure of paying my debts, and afford creditors the happiness of receiving their own? I have created their unhappiness and my own by adversity, and shall I retain what is not my own to their greater injury and my guilt." European; I wish to impress your mind, by setting in full view that discarded maxiin, 66 Owe no man any thing," and "Whatsoever ye would that man should do to you, do ye to them likewise." When I am no more, most steadily pursue the object where the path of virtue is least frequented. You know by various means, that my failure was the result of bad management, and you have your success, to create by caution, circumspection, industry, and economy.

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saw all my stockings when you was a perfect boy, rotting in their dirt and unrepaired. Suppose they were worth forty shillings, in a short time they becaine much worse, new ones were bought to supply their place, and in an emergent case, high priced ones, as I could not wait, and my old ones were not repaired. Twenty shillings were expended' in new ones Thus ou a moderate calculation, including all my things, I can make it evident that ten times too much money has been cast away. I repeat it my son, bad management, extravagance, and a prevailing improvidence in all my domestic concerns, brought me to the deplorable condition to which we have

reference.

Oh! that I could have persuaded my wife, that she who runs in debt, gives another person power over her liberty. How often I have been ashamed to meet my creditor, because I could not pay, or did not like to speak to him, and if I did I made poor pitiful excuses, and by degrees, my veracity was exposed, I was tempted to base lying, to hide my wife's expenses, or to downright falsehoods to

hide my shame, or to equivocation, until iny humbling circumstances brought me into fetters, though a free born Englishman.

Bad management is the mother of cruel evils. Many a pound was spent upon my wife, that she might enter a room gracefully, and walk genteely, nor could I but believe that the dancing-master was successful, but I find now, she goes about every thing by fits and starts, sometimes she will embrace me most cordially for a moment, but if I set my cane in the parlour, dropped a pocket handkerchief, or mistook a word, she would fret and scold, which often made me thankful that my legs and arms were fastened to my body. This was one reason of the fatal choice I made of a companion, for the people that go by ́fits and starts, are generally better companions abroad than at home; more lovely before than after marriage.

One day, or at least a very small part of a day, she was all kindness and love, the other part of the day inaccessible as Mount Etna: Continually she was praising the cook, or lowering the victuals,

or praising the victuals, but lowering the cook. Sometimes exalting them all, but more frequently degrading them. And what was inost irksome to my mind, and the greatest trouble to my soul, she was so whimsical in religion, for she was religious by fits and starts, and yet, I could not say she had good and bad fits in this respect, for she that attempts to catch religion by whim, neither plucks its cheering fruit, nor partakes of its healing spirit. She could call herself wicked indeed, the essence of wickedness, so bad, no body was like her; which was either false or true, If true, it would be infinitely better to confess it to God than to man, lest man should believe her, and she should not catch the praise she sometimes sought, nor obtain forgiveness with many. But if it was a falsehood, for conscience sake it ought not to be once named. One intallible rule always guided my judgment in these important things: "By their fruits

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shall know them." And I have known her, and many of her brethren and sisters, to pull a long face, and whine out a tale of their wickedness, as if religion was to be known by distorting the fea

tures, rather than by changing the corrupt disposition, subduing evil affections, and producing whatsoever is lovely and of good report. It is from such miserable distortions and vague pretensions that the infidel derives a sneering glow of soul, against the existence and truth of those principles, which figuratively speaking, turn the lion into a lamb, and the enemy of God into a friend; but, because some may put on the garb and miserably mimic a Garick, does this prove that such a person never had a being.

I cannot form a good opinion of that professor, who on the day before, or days after the sabbath, can torment her family with groundless complaints, fretting and ill-nature; peevish at home and abroad; just as the fit takes her. A cloud could not be more tossed about with every wind, than my wife with every gust of passion: with out considering that what we are in our hearts towards God, and in life towards man, that we are in reality in the sight of him that shall judge us.

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