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knowledgment of the affectionate manner in which I had been entertained
Since we part, Adieu, kind friend, Interpreter from God, Sent from whose sovereign goodness I adore. Gentle to me, and affable, hath been Thy condescension, and shall be ever honour'd With grateful mem'ry. But it was an event which the coincidence of circumstances in a Pilgrim's life, like mine, could only produce, that soon after I left the house of the Interpreter, I met the poor man, of whom such honourable testimony is made by me in the former part of these memoirs, accompanied with my moral neighbour, at whose instance I attended the elegant preach. er's sermon, who is also mentioned in the first days of my inquiry for the way to Zion. Struck with astonishment at what I saw, that such an one should come on pilgrimage, I was going to express my surprise, when he anticipated all my inquiries, by accounting for the change. * To this dear friend,' he cried, taking the poor man by the hand, I am indebted, under God, for the gracious conversion of my mind from the error of its ways. I felt no small confusion from the strength of your observations respecting the ineffectual tendency of morality to justify before God; and particularly from the
manner in which you stated it in your conversation, as instanced in the conduct of brethren towards one another, while deficient in love and obedience towards their Father. But the remarks of this poor man at the church porch, after the sermon we had heard, were such as threw to the ground, through God's grace, all the building of self-confidence which I had been rearing ap from the supposed rectitude of my life. And since that time, I have been so thoroughly convinced, from the frequent instructions of this dear friend, whom I have made my constant companion, of the utter impossibility of man's being justified by any thing of his own before God, that all my astonishment now is, not that I have for ever relinquished the vain pretension, but that I ever should have imbibed it. I am now most fully satisfied, I bless God, that so far is the highest moral virtue, from affording any ground of justification before God, that unless divine grace keep the soul humble under all its attainments, it is apt to produce pride in our hearts, and thereby to subject us to the greater condemnation. It may very safely be granted, that all moral excellencies will be the necessary result of true religion, as good fruit will be the natural production of a good tree; and that after the greatest pretensions, we have no au. thority to call that man religious who is immoral. But it must at the same time be insiste ed upon as strenuously, that so far detached is morality from religion, in a great variety of instances, that nothing is more common in life, than to see persons who are truly irreproachable in their conduct towards man, who are totally remiss and even profane as to their demeanour before God. Hence, therefore, there are a thousand cases to which the best and most extensive laws of morality cannot reach ; but yet they are all cognizable before Him who trieth the heart. I discovered these truths by this poor man's instruction, through divine grace, and immediately found the fallacy under which I had been living. And, blessed be God, I have now learnt, that, without repentance tawards God, and faith in our Lord Jesus Christ;' the most punctual and diligent discharge of the moral obligations I owe my neighbour, cannot justify me before God.'
My heart rejoiced at what I heard, and secretly I felt within me the full force of that question, "What hath God wrought?'
I de tain not the reader with the relation of what followed this unexpected meeting ; neither do I think it necessary to extend my nar
rative by an account of a great variety of occurrences with which my pilgrimage hath since been distinguished. I promised him at the commencement of my history, that it should be a shortone, from the hour in which the Lord was pleased to call me by his grace, to the period in which I sat down to communicate it; and having brought the subject thus far, I shall therefore now relieve the reader's attention altogether.
To tell him of my present feelings, amidst a mingled state of many precious assurances, tempered with many trying dispensations, , would be to relate the uniform history of every pilgrim to Zion. These are the spots of God's children, and they all prove a family-likeness. I am frequently exercised with deep and sharp trials, and sometimes feel a heart disposed to tell my Heavenly Teacher, that I think I might be spared many such lessons. But the upshot of the instruction generally brings me to this conclusion: "How happy it is for me, that I am placed under a wiser and better die rection than my own!
I am now waiting the Master's call, rather, I persuade myself, (if I know any thing of my own heart, with a pleasing, than an anxious expectation. My desire is 'to die daily to the world,
and to crucify the flesh with its affections and husts. I wish to sit as detached as possible from every thing here below, that when the carriage to fetch me stops at my door, I may rise up instantly, and depart to meet the Lord in the air. Under this view, my heart is weaning more and more, I hope, from all things beneath
Little of this world can I speak, for I know but little of its employments. I am seeking a better country, that is, an heavenly.' And what is it to the man under sentence of death in Newgate, what is transacting on the Royal Exchange?
And as to the full assurance of faith, respecte ing the possession of those immortal objects
me, I can and do say, with the humblest, but at the same time with the best grounded confidence, I know in whom I have believed ; being confident of this very thing, that he who has begun a good work in me will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ.' That crown of righteousness,' which the Apostle declared was not only laid up for him, but for all them that love the appearing of the Lord,' is baid up for me also. I have examined myself by this standard, as well as by every other which I know of; Do I love the Lord's appearing? Yes! I love his appearing