Memory was the word she used, as if all my youth were fled. I suppose I really am quite elderly. "I should like to know her name, sir," she said, "that I may mention her with loving respect in my prayers." I raised the woman and told her the name. It was not Mary. "But she has a home," I said, "as you have, and I have none. ma'am, it would be better worth your while to mention me." Perhaps, It was this woman, now in health, whom I intrusted with the purchase of the outfits, "one for a boy of six months," I explained to her, "and one for a boy of a year," for the painter had boasted to me of David's rapid growth. I think she was a little surprised to find that both outfits were for the same house; and she certainly betrayed an ignoble curiosity about the mother's Christian name, but she was much easier to brow-beat than a fine lady would have been, and I am sure she and her daughter enjoyed themselves hugely in the shops, from one of which I shall never forget Irene emerging proudly with a commissionaire, who conducted her under an umbrella to the cab where I was lying in wait. I think that was the most celestial walk of Irene's life. I told Mrs. Hicking to give the articles a little active ill-treatment that they might not look quite new, at which she exclaimed, not being in my secret, and then to forward them to me. I then sent them to Mary and rejoiced in my devilish cunning all the evening, but chagrin came in the morning with a letter from her which showed she knew all, that I was her Mr. Anon, and that there never had been a Timothy. I think I was never so gravelled. Even now I don't know how she had contrived it. Her cleverness raised such a demon in me that I locked away her letter at once and have seldom read it since. No married lady should have indited such an epistle to a single man. It said, with other things which I decline to repeat, that I was her good fairy. As a sample of the deliberate falsehoods in it, I may mention that she said David loved me already. She hoped that I would come in often to see her husband, who was very proud of my friendship, and suggested that I should pay him my first visit to-day at three o'clock, an hour at which, as I happened to know, he is always away giving a painting lesson. In short, she wanted first to meet me alone, so that she might draw the delicious, respectful romance out of me, and afterward repeat it to him, with sighs and little peeps at him over her pocket handkerchief. She had dropped what were meant to look like two tears for me upon the paper, but I should not wonder though they were only artful drops of water. I sent her a stiff and tart reply, declining to hold any communication with her. FRANCIS THOMPSON (1860-1907) Daisy WHERE the thistle lifts a purple crown Six foot out of the turf, And the harebell shakes on the windy hill O breath of the distant surf! The hills look over on the South, And southward dreams the sea; And with the sea-breeze hand in hand Came innocence and she. Where 'mid the gorse the raspberry Red for the gatherer springs, Two children did we stray and talk Wise, idle, childish things. She listened with big-lipped surprise, Breast-deep 'mid flower and spine: Her skin was like a grape whose veins Run snow instead of wine. She knew not those sweet words she spake, Nor knew her own sweet way; Oh, there were flowers in Storrington Her beauty smoothed earth's furrowed face. She gave me tokens three: A look, a word of her winsome mouth, A berry red, a guileless look, A still word,-strings of sand! And yet they made my wild, wild heart Fly down to her little hand. For standing artless as the air, She took the berries with her hand, The fairest things have fleetest end, Then went her sunshine way:The sea's eye had a mist on it, And the leaves fell from the day. She left me marvelling why my soul The sweetness in the sad. Still, still I seemed to see her, still Look up with soft replies, And take the berries with her hand, And the love with her lovely eyes. Nothing begins, and nothing ends, That is not paid with moan; For we are born in other's pain, And perish in our own. The Poppy SUMMER set lip to earth's bosom bare, And left the flushed print in a poppy there: Like a yawn of fire from the grass it came, And the fanning wind puffed it to flapping flame. With burnt mouth, red like a lion's, it drank The blood of the sun as he slaughtered sank, And dipped its cup in the purpurate shine When the Eastern conduits ran with wine. Till it grew lethargied with fierce bliss, A child and man paced side by side, But between the clasp of his hand and hers Lay, felt not, twenty withered years. She turned, with the rout of her dusk South hair, And saw the sleeping gipsy there: And snatched and snapped it in swift child's whim, With "Keep it, long as you live!"—to him. And his smile, as nymphs from their laving meres, Trembled up from a bath of tears; For he saw what she did not see, And suddenly 'twixt his hand and hers "Was never such thing until this hour," "Was never this thing to me," he said, And again to his own heart very low: "Oh child! I love, for I love and know; "But you, who love nor know at all Where some rise early, few sit long: "Who know not love from amity, "O frankly fickle, and fickly true, Do you know what the days will do to you? To your love and you what the days will do, O frankly fickle, and fickly true? "You have loved me, Fair, three lives-or days: 'Twill pass with the passing of my face. But where I go, your face goes too, To watch lest I play false to you. "I am but, my sweet, your foster-lover, Knowing well when certain years are over You vanish from me to another; Yet I know, and love, like the fostermother. "So, frankly fickle, and fickly true! For my brief life-while I take from you This token, fair and fit, meseems, For me-this withering flower of dreams." The sleep-flower sways in the wheat its head, Heavy with dreams, as that with bread: The goodly grain and the sun-flushed sleeper The reaper reaps, and Time the reaper. I hang 'mid men my needless head, But still within the little children's eyes Seems something, something that replies, They at least are for me, surely for me! With dawning answers there, Their angel plucked them from me by the hair. "Come then, ye other children, Nature's -share With me" (said I) "your delicate fellowship; Let me greet you lip to lip, Let me twine with you caresses, With our Lady-Mother's vagrant tresses, Banqueting With her in her wind-walled palace, I in their delicate fellowship was one- I knew how the clouds arise All that's born or dies Rose and drooped with; made them shapers Of mine own moods, or wailful or divine; With them joyed and was bereaven. I laughed in the morning's eyes. I triumphed and I saddened with all weather, Heaven and I wept together, And its sweet tears were salt with mortal And share commingling heat; But not by that, by that, was eased my human smart. In vain my tears were wet on Heaven's grey cheek. For ah! we know not what each other says, These things and I; in sound I speak Their sound is but their stir, they speak by silences. Nature, poor stepdame, cannot slake my drouth; Let her, if she would owe me, Drop yon blue bosom-veil of sky, and show me The breasts o' her tenderness: Never did any milk of hers once bless Nigh and nigh draws the chase, A voice comes yet more fleet"Lo! naught contents thee, who content'st not Me." |