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a Charater of Piety and unshaken Virtue, was 'what he wanted. And such an one in the
Year 1688, he thought he had found; and had actually agreed with him about it, being not a little rejoic'd with the hopes of being foon treed from noise, and hurry, and world. 'ly Business; and having nothing to do, but take care of his own Soul, and do good to the Souls of Others. But the News of the late Revolution chang’d that Gentleman's Thoughts and broke Mr. Bonnell's Measures
His desires of entring into the Ministry, An Enemy to were of a very early Date; for I find that se. Soliciting for veral Attempts were made by his Friends, du. Preferment, ring his Residence in England, to procure him some settlement in the Church there; some of which might have succeeded, had he seconded
his Friends Zeal, by any Endeavours of his cown: But that he was so far from doing,
that he reckon'd it a great unhappiness to the Church, that Interest and Application had any share in the disposal of Spiritual Things. And when his Friend, Mr. Freeman, out of a sense of Mr. Bonnell's great Merit, and the Services he had done him, design'd to have pura chas'd the Advowson of a Benefice, that he
might present Mr. Bonnell to it; he himself I was the only person that oppos'd it, and so disappointed the kind Intentions of his Friend.
Andris probable that some Endeavours of his Friends for his Advantage, occasion'd the following Meditation, Written in the Year 1 680, wherein we will see what were his sentiments of soliciting for Employments in the Church;
gage To Fleln angemper; than to?
and hateed more vicmper; Forery
and what Motives he proposes to himself, why he shou'd in all those Affairs, chearfully submit to the Will of God, and acquiesce in his Wisdom
'I have often thought it (says be) a great ' misfortune of some Men, whose condition • engages them in foliciting for Preferment • and Places, which they often miss; and an ' unhappy effect of some Employments, par
ticularly in Divinity. And I can't but pi(ty such Men whose Employments almost ne' cessarily engage them in such conflies, as
feem very uneasy to Fleh and Blood and very • apt to shock a Christian Temper; For to o what is one carried more violently, than to 'grudge and hate a Rival or Competitor ? " To speak Evil of him when occasion is offer'd,
and envy him if he succeeds? And what Jealousies, what Animosities, what Heart-Burn
ings, are commonly the effect of such De• bates ; are naturally apt (without much ' struggling with ones self) to be produced
by them? Yet this, O my Soul, will be I made easy to Thee, if Thou dost all with 6 relation to God. If Thou countest it Thy • only Business in this World, to serve God; ' and considereft, that no service can be plea'fing to him, that is not submissive; For if
I serve God but as I will my self, I can't suprpose it will be acceptable to him. Where
fore I will defire no Place, Preferment, nor • Employment to please my self (especially ' in the Church, but indeed no where else) but to serve God. If therefore I fail of any
ething of this nature, for me to be dissatisfied, ' or envious, or angry, or the like, is as if I • Thou'd proffer my service to a Master, with ' great professions of Humility and Respect,
to do such a piece of work, wbich he thinks 6 fit to set another Servant about, and I im(mediately fly out into the most unmannerly, i and undutiful Expressions, both against one , and the other. I can't say that God whol, ly casts me out of his Service, for where ever « I am in this World, I am in it: all I wait
for, is, a change of Duties; and if God
thinks not fit to employ me in that way, if s indeed I principally desire to serve him, as o I profess, 1 ought to be far from being dis. pleas’d.
Fancy, O my Soul, that thou hearest thy . God thus speaking to thee: My son, 'tis 'but a little time you will stay in this World, ' no matter how you are Employ'd, so you 'do it faithfully and well: The greater the
Charge is, the greater Duty, and the greater ' Account will be expected : Since by all your ( Labour, you strive only to please me, you will do that more, by labouring according
to my Will, where I set you, than where " you seek to place your self. It will not be
long before I shall take you to my self; in the mean time, the highest thing you can do
to procure my Favour, is to do your Duty ' where my Providence shall place you. And • if other things fail which you desire, oraim ! at, count that I think not fit to remove you, and let it satisfy you because it pleaseth me.
Ah Lord! perfect this Important Lesson in 'my Heart, which I am beginning to learn, rand Thou to Teach me, and change me
more and more by the Power of thy Grace, e till I at last be transform'd into the heaven• ly likeness of Thy Dear Son, Amen.
The following Medication written when bis Thoughts were more particularly fix'd upon the Ministry, shews what were his sentiments of that sacred Calling, and how necessary he Judg'd a sincere Intention to promote Gods Glory and the good of Souls, to render us qualified for it, and useful in it. Here we may see what Awful Thoughts that good Man had of that Great and Difficult Work, taking Care of the Souls of Men, and what a constant Eye all' who Design to be, or are engag’d in that service, ought to have to God in the Discharge of it, and how Watchful they should be against the, Allaults of worldly Interest and Vanity.
• If we Design, says he, any work for the 'good of Souls, we must take care that it be
undertaken by. Gods permission and encouragement; for we are not always Compe
tent Judges of what is proper to this End, ' in particular Cases: Many things may seem ( to our shallow Reasons to have a plausible
tendency towards it, which God may not
Judge fitting: The Temple had not been 'so fitting for God or his Churches Service, if • Built by David's Hand's. Therefore it is ' fit we should take his Advice and Direction
' (of his Word and Providence,) in his own Work, as to laying the Design.
Next in the carrying it on, we mi ft from orimetime lutherbommer in the work
time to time, lay the Ilummet to the Work, and see that it squares with a Right Intention for God's Glory; that every word be Impregnated with a Divine Spirit, and pure zeal for the service of Souls For how can that be likely to do good to Souls, which is
only intended to Mew our Parts, or get our 'selves Esteem? Our own Business indeed 'may be done by the by, in pursuing of God's, but God's Business will not be done by the
by, in pursuing our own. All Humane Af. 'fections are uphallow'd in respect of God's "Work, and pollute it by being mixt with ' it. They are the Dead flyes which corrupt
this precious Perfume of the Sanctuary, and cause it to fend forth an unpleasing Savour to God. See that thou do all things according to o the Pattern fhero'd thee in the Mount, said God
to Moses when he was about his Sanctuary : . We must look up to our Pattern, in doing God's Work, his Will and Direction. In
that we are not allow'd to please our selves i or follow our own Fancy and Invention. How can any thing that we do of our selves be able to Benefit Souls? Alas it is as much
beyond our Power to benefit them, as it is to , redeem them, so we must let that alone for
ever, unless the Strength of God goes along i with our Weakness. One is the peculiar Work of God the Son, the other of God the Spirit. Unless our Words Aow from his InD 2