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November If it shou'd please God to let this Storm 1687, 'blow over us which now hangs so black, and me

turn his Judgments into a Blelling; I shou'd ( not be capable of any Comfort from such a "happy Day, if I shou'd reflect that I had a ' not perform'd my part in praying earnest

ly to God for such à Blessing. They only that Sow in Tears, shall Reap in Joy: If I ) have no part in that holy Sowing, I shall

look upon my self to have no share in that ( happy Harvelt. I shall be like the Sullen Sa. i maritan Lord, who wou'd not believe the 's

Prophets Word. I shall see the Plenty with my Eye, but not be suffered to taste of it. • If Perfons join together for an Adventure,

and put in their Stocks; surely the Gain, ( when it returns, shall be divided between (them, and a Stranger shall not intermedle ' with their Profit. Good People are now

stirring up themselves to join earnelily together in Prayer, for a removal of the Judg: (ments that threaten us; and surely if I join

not with them with my humble Prayers, 1 shall see a Blessing falling into their Bosoms; I shall see it, and look sad, and go away

empty Hic Behavie And as Mr. Bonnell saw danger coming on, our upon the with a very compos'd Mind, so his Apprehenbreaking out fions did not grow greater at the near approach of the late of it. For I find in his Private Papers, an acTroubles. count of his Behaviour, when this Kingdom

was universally Alarm’d at the report of a Massacre, defign’d to have been Аčted upon the Ninth of December 1688: This News


- astonish'd the Protestants every where, parti

cularly in Dublin, and great Multitudes fied in id confusion to the Sea fide to escape, as they best

cou'd, for England. What share Mr. Bonnell had in these Fears, and how quickly he got A the better of them; what now follows will · best shew, writ that very Day of Terror and

Disorder, when the Impressions, which a common danger might raise in the best resolved Mind, wou'd probably be strongest.

How inconstant are humane things ! Bles- December 9 fed is the Soul that has his hope fixed on 1688. Thee, O Lord. Last Thursday the Letter threatning a Massacre of all the English, on

this Day came to Town ; and People not (receiving such satisfaction from the Lord

Deputy as they expected, began to think of ( England and multitudes flock'd away. I went e my self to Rings-end, thinking if there were (any Alarm, I was nearer to take Shipping.

I had the Duties of my Place upon me, and E no leave to go: Therefore I wou'd not go, í (unless in case of Extremity, when no Duty

cou'd be attended on. If I desired to fol. "low the direction of God, and to watch cand observe the guiding of his Providence 'in every lesser Affair of my Life, surely I ? shou'd do it in the most important one, my . Life it self; for if I may presume anything 4 relating to me to be his care, this no doubt

is. Now the Index of his Will, is his Pro(vidence; and of his Providence, is my Duty : ! This is the Star that points out to Me the course. I am to take. If I am discharg’d


from my Duty, I may expect Gods Protectia on in going from hence ; if not, in staying here. While I waited at Rings:end, uncer tain in my resolutions, I remember'd a Verse of the First Lesson at last Nights Prayers, which then I took notice of, but forgot it in the hurry of going away. Ifa. 30. 15. In returning and reft Jhall ye be saved, in quietness ' and confidence shall be your strength. God re(quires of us a confident reliance on him, in

the Station wherein he sets us; a quiet doing of our Duty, and he Promises his fafe-guard "to such. I thought therefore I wou'd return,

and put my self into his Hands, and Endeavour quietly to compose my self to await his • pleasure. Instead of hurrying about to en'quire of News, I wou'd retire my self to my

God, and settle matters between him and my « Soul. Behold I am come, O my God, hide

not thy self from thy Servant in the Day of • Danger. O shut not out thy self from me e this day, when the matter in debate is my

appearing before thee for ever. I have dea e serv'd, I must humbly acknowledge that thou 'Thou’dít withdraw thy Grace and Favour from 'my Soul. But cast not away, O Lord, all thy past Favours, and let them not be lost upon me. Pardon for thy tender Mercies, (my unworthiness of them, and awaken my

Soul to behold thee, that thy presence may (purifie it from all the Dross it has contracted • by conversing in the World, and fit it for (thy self. Lord, Thou lovest to Succour in Distress; nothing is so pleasing to generous

: Love, Lovë, aš to rescue from Danger, chose whom • it is pleas'd to favour. For what sentiments

does this awaken in an Ingenuous Heart ! · Who can but adore that watchful love which I reasonably comes into its preservation! This

then, Ô Lord, is my humble confidence in "Thee; for I not only liope for deliverance ' from Thee, but that thou wilt make this * Deliverancé, a means to my Soul of return‘ing to Thee love and praises for ever. But 'O my God, instruct my Soul to remove all • difficulties that lye in the way of Thy Mer'cy; that every corrupt Affe&tion may be 'done away, which hinders my approach to 'Thee; and I may make my peace with Thee • my God, by the methods Thou hast pre'scrib'd, even Humiliation and Sorrow, and Searnest calling upon Thee. We are not to

think, but that even this Terror is a Judga "ment from Thee. O Pardon, Gracious Lord, 'the Sins that have more immediately pro'vok'd it; even our not having Jay'd to.

Heart, so much as we shou’d, the terrors of 'thy Soul, O molt gracious Lord Jesu, which

Thou didst undergo for our fakes, when Thy

Soul was sorrowful even unto Death, and cry'd 'ont, Father, save me from this hour: By Thy 'Terrors, O Lord, sanctify this Thy Judg

ment, and let us always love to meditate on (Thy Agony for our fakes. Amen.

I find another excellent Meditation of His, upon the same Publick Troubles, Compos'd by him, December the Twenty Second 1688, when our Fears and Distractions were at the

greatest greatest heighth; and which I fall here give the Reader, that he may see how Mr. Bonnell, by a firm confidence in God, secur'd the peace of his own Mind, in that general disorder; and may learn the way to be safe and happy, Thou'd God send the sameCalamities upon us.

ll. 30. 15. Thus faith the Lord, the holy one of Israel, in returning and rest ye shall be saved, e inquietness and confidence shall be your strength : "In returning from your solicitous cares and

anxious fears, and vain projectings for your o escape and safety. The time you bestow

upon these, to how much better purpose < wou'd it be laid out in waiting upon me, cand imploring my aid and protetion who ( am so easily able to defend you? And this is

the reason why in time of danger, I require < your resting quietness and confidence in me; • because if I think fit not to give you deliverance, this fits your Souls for my self; co en. ? < joy Me in a much better condition. But if < I send deliverance, this makes you know that (it comes from my hand, and disposes you ! c to make me thankful Returns for it. They < that in danger do not dispose themselves to • a dependance on God, and confidence in

him, if deliverance comes, they are apt to - impute it to an arm of Flesh, or to Chance, " and the revolution of things. But these

Souls, chat quiet themselves in God, and < with an humble confidence, depend wholly con his power and readiness to help them, if o it be his Will, see plainly that what deliver ! rance they obtain is wrought by his hard; i

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