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ness and Worldliness crept into the Church, and has been ever since striking its Roots

deep into it to this very day; the whole . Christian Church having never since suffered

any general Persecution. It has pleas d God sometimes to Afflict particular Churches, and rouze them up; but this has been so little

general, that we may well fear that the Spi'rit of Religion is almost decay'd in the ' World: And as nothing but a great Pere ! secution in Humane appearance can awaken ' it, so in the mean time we know not where

to look for it; but have reason to fear, that ' if we think it enough for us to be as good as ' our Neighbours , we all come short at last ' of the Kingdom of Heaven. Alas! it is the « easiest thing that can be, to go to Heaven

according to the Notion of the Men of the

World now. At their rate, Who will be i damn'd ? But surely there must be Two Heavens, at great distance the one from the

other : One for the Superficial Christians I of this Age, and Another for the Pious and

Painful, the mortified and religiously strict < Christians of Old; or else these Superfici, ç al Christians can go to no Heaven at all.

To both these I shall add a Prayer of his upon his Birth-day, November 14 1690, and tho’ only part of it falls in with what went before, yet no doubt the Pious Reader will be sufficiently pleas’d with the whole.

O most High and Glorious Lord God! Who < haft made me and given me such great Capacities, even to be able to love Thee: I

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e was nothing when Thou wert pleas'd to give me a Being and am nothing yet, but what Thou shalt be pleas'd to make me. Thou orderest and disposes of me with the ten• derness of a Father, and with infinite Wif

dom: Sometimes Thou hast vouchrated 'me leisure, and the quiet enjoyment of thy « felf: At other times Thou hast filld me (with Hurry and Business; and with Cares, · if not so much Hurrying, yet more Distract'ing than either. Sometimes Thou hast ( granted me Health, a chearful Temper, and che sense of Thy Love: At other times

Thou hast left me no more than the bare { remembrance of these Enjoyments, to car(ry on my soul in the unrelishing discharge

of my Duties. But as Thy Wisdom produces strong Trees from tender Plants, by bringing them through the vicissitudes of Day and Night, of Summer and Winter, and

leaving them sometimes stript of all their 'Leaves, in the very shadow of their Death, ( making these changes the necessary means of their Growth and Solidness; To Thou hast instructed me hereby, not to wonder at Thy appointing such changes to my Soul ; but in them all to bless and adore Thee,and

to make it my business, in whatever state I "am, to endeavour to go on to serve Thee.

When last I began my yearly Collections of “ this sort, Thou hadít fhut me up, and Thy "Servants, in this place, in distrefs and ter

rors: We are now by thy Mercy free'd from Dangers, yet involv'd in new Trou

bles 'b'es: Deliver'd from Judgments, yet opI press’d with old Sins. Good God! What

will become of us? Why shou'd we be stricken any more; we will revolt more and more. Surely thy extirminating Sen

tence will next go out against us, and make rus cease to be a People, since we will not ' cease to be a wicked one.

But, moft gracious Governour and Guide of my whole Life, but not up my

Soul with those who will not be Reform’d: ' Enable me to reform my self, and then ' vouchsafe to make use of me for Thy Glo? ry, in the way Thy Wisdom has ordain'd

for me: () thou who hast known me bei fore I was, and made me what I am.

Amen.

These Apprehensions of the decay of Piety, Resolves an stirr'd up a new in Mr. Bonnell's Mind, his gain to quit former desires of betaking himself entirely to his Employthe service of God, and quitting all Secular ment. Business. In order to this, he entred into a firm resolution of parting with his Employ, ment, so soon as he cou'd find one, upon whom with an easie Mind he might devolve so great a Trust ; and in a little time he actually agreed with a Gentleman of sufficient Abilities for it. But that Gentleman's Delays first, and asterwards his Resolutions of living constantly in England, kept Mr. Bonnell much longer engag'd in his Employment, than he cou'd posfibly have expected. But at last he was free'd from it, by a new Agreement which he made

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with the Gentleman who now enjoys it;

bet even so, much time was spent before He

*cca d be settled in it. Hi, Warri. While this tediors Afair was transacting.

Vir. Binnell chang'd his condition of Life, and entred into a Marri'd State, which he did in the latter end of the Year 1693. The Persoa he made choice of, was Jane Conyngham, Daughter to Sir Albert Corynz bam; a Gentleman, very well kaown in this Kingdom, for his firm adherence to the Royal Family, du. ring the Civil Wars; in whole Cause, he of tep espos'd his Life to the greatest Dangers; and for his Bravery ard Conduct in the late War, commanding a Regiment of Dragoons, and at last Dyicg in the Service. Mr. Bonnell had some Years before, entred into a strict Friendship with this Gentlewoman. He believed her Temper and manner of Life ve. ry well suited to bis own, and that she had those Qualities which he chiefly desir'd in a Wife. And as this was an Affair of the greatest Moment to him, of any in this World ; so I have those Materials in my hands which shew, that with all imaginable Constancy and Ardor, he beg'd God's direction in his Resolution and Choice, that every thought of his Mind, and every step he shou'd make, might be overral'd by his Providence: That Providence to whose conduct and disposal he had long before, refign'd up himself and all his concerns; and whose motions he was fully determin'd, without the least Reluctancy, to

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He had at all times different thoughts of the Happiness of a Marrid State from the generality of Men, who are govern’d more by violent and disorderly Passions, than by Reason and Religion. The following Meditation is a sufficient Proof of this, written by him in the 26th Year of his Age, and which he Intitles The Wish, or an Idea of Marriage.

Marriage is the Representative of the most sacred Union between Christ and his • Church,Christ, who left his Blessed Father to

become Marri'd to Mankind, and espouse a "whole Church for a Wife. Till this was In

stituted Man was but half made and Im-
perfect ; For this ball a Man leave his Father
and Mother faid God himself.
. For this, First let me serve a sufficient time

of Courtship, but let it be sweetped with the i Conversation of the Person I love, and if

there be opposition of others to struggle ' with, it will but render the conversation < the more favoury, and afford matter for

Entertainment and Discourse, and likewise - many times for Divertisement; at least it

will the more endear under a cominon Sufi fering. Next upon Marriage, let us imme

diately remove from the mixt Company in ( which hitherto we have liv'd, to enjoy each s other in a more solitary Retirement, where call things about us are our own, and to be

our own Care: And here,let us be sufficient

Company to each other as Adam was to Eve ein Paradice. Here let me in my family be the Priest of the most High God, and let his

· Praises

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