That bids me loathe my present state, And fly from all I prized the most : It is that weariness which springs From all I meet, or hear, or see : To me no pleasure Beauty brings; Thine eyes have scarce a charm for me. It is that settled, ceaseless gloom The fabled Hebrew wanderer bore; That will not look beyond the tomb, But cannot hope for rest before. What Exile from himself can flee? To zones though more and more remote, Still, still pursues, where'er I be, The blight of life—the demon Thought. Yet others rapt in pleasure seem, And taste of all that I forsake; And ne'er, at least like me, awake! Through many a clime 'tis mine to go, With many a retrospection curst; And all my solace is to know, Whate'er betides, I've known the worst. What is that worst? Nay, do not ask In pity from the search forbear : Smile on—nor venture to unmask Man's heart, and view the Hell that's there. WOULD I were a careless child, Still dwelling in my Highland cave, Or roaming through the dusky wild, Or bounding o'er the dark blue wave ; The cumbrous pomp of Saxon pride Accords not with the freeborn soul, Which loves the mountain's craggy side, And seeks the rocks where billows roll. Fortune ! take back these cultured lands, Take back this name of splendid sound ! I hate the touch of servile hands, I hate the slaves that cringe around. Place me among the rocks I love, Which sound to Ocean's wildest roar; I ask but this—again to rove Through scenes my youth hath known before. Few are my years, and yet I feel The world was ne'er design'd for me : Ah! why do dark'ning shades conceal The hour when man must cease to be ? A visionary scene of bliss : Awake me to a world like this? I loved—but those I loved are gone; Had friends—my early friends are fled : How cheerless feels the heart alone, When all its former hopes are dead ! Dispel awhile the sense of ill; The heart—the heart-is lonely still. How dull ! to hear the voice of those Whom rank or chance, whom wealth or power, Have made, though neither friends nor foes, Associates of the festive hour. Give me again a faithful few, In years and feelings still the same, And I will fly the midnight crew, Where boist'rous joy is but a name. And woman, lovely woman ! thou, My hope, my comforter, my all ! How cold must be my bosom now, When e'en thy smiles begin to pall ! This busy scene of splendid woe, Which virtue knows, or seems to know. Fain would I fly the haunts of men I seek to shun, not hate mankind ; My breast requires the sullen glen, Whose gloom may suit a darken'd mind. Oh ! that to me the wings were given Which bear the turtle to her nest! Then would I cleave the vault of heaven, To flee away, and be at rest. |