That bids me loathe my present state, And fly from all I prized the most : It is that weariness which springs It is that settled, ceaseless gloom What Exile from himself can flee? To zones though more and more remote, Still, still pursues, where'er I be, The blight of life-the demon Thought. Yet others rapt in pleasure seem, Through many a clime 'tis mine to go, Whate'er betides, I've known the worst. What is that worst? Nay, do not ask In pity from the search forbear: Smile on-nor venture to unmask Man's heart, and view the Hell that's there. WOULD I were a careless child, Still dwelling in my Highland cave, Or roaming through the dusky wild, Or bounding o'er the dark blue wave; The cumbrous pomp of Saxon pride Accords not with the freeborn soul, Which loves the mountain's craggy side, And seeks the rocks where billows roll. Fortune! take back these cultured lands, I hate the slaves that cringe around. Which sound to Ocean's wildest roar ; I ask but this—again to rove Through scenes my youth hath known before. Few are my years, and yet I feel The world was ne'er design'd for me: I loved-but those I loved are gone; When all its former hopes are dead! How dull! to hear the voice of those Whom rank or chance, whom wealth or power, Have made, though neither friends nor foes, Give me again a faithful few, In years and feelings still the same, And I will fly the midnight crew, Where boist'rous joy is but a name. And woman, lovely woman! thou, This busy scene of splendid woe, Fain would I fly the haunts of men— My breast requires the sullen glen, Whose gloom may suit a darken'd mind. Oh! that to me the wings were given Which bear the turtle to her nest! Then would I cleave the vault of heaven, To flee away, and be at rest. |