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shelter for two days at Welford, where I had a little more tranquillity than before.

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My favourite scheme for removing the family along with me could not be brought to bear; and I am now sensible that it was the mercy of God that disappointed it; for had Mrs. Jennings brought Miss Jennings along with her, with that irreconcilable aversion to me, and excessive fondness for Mr. Grew, which I am persuaded she then entertained, I had been the most unhappy creature upon the earth.

"I did not leave Harborough till December 24th, and just before that day I passed a most severe struggle, which almost broke my heart; we talked over that dear affair in which my whole soul was then so deeply engaged, and nothing could be more steadily and composedly cruel than Miss Jennings's behaviour; so that I went away overwhelmed with distress, and whatever respite I might for a few moments have, my heart was, as it were, eat up with fervent anguish, and pining, with a self-consuming

sorrow.

"I began housekeeping about the 13th of January, 1730, and took possession of that chamber in which I hope to spend most of the remaining studious hours of my life *."

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In the perusal of this interesting extract, there is one consideration, which forces itself upon the attention with peculiar weight, and that is, the deter

* See Diary, and a letter from Dr. Doddridge to Mr. Wilbaum.

mined adherence to the thorny path of duty, which Dr. Doddridge exhibited under these trying circum

stances.

And yet how severely he suffered in the struggle, even his own touching language, although inscribed when his hand was yet trembling with emotion, and his heart still shrinking with the torture of its wound, has perhaps but faintly pourtrayed,-for we must remember that he was self-banished,—and that in anger, from her, who, during many years of anxiety, had bestowed upon him the fostering cares of parental tenderness; and prematurely forced into a rupture with one still dearer, in whom, with the confiding security of mutual affection, his future hopes of domestic happiness had fondly centred.

Nor did he suffer the triumph he had achieved over the amiable weakness of his nature, to be tarnished by the time-consuming sighs of unavailing regret. He deeply felt the high responsibilities of the station he occupied; and a reference to his Diary would show that he devoted every power of his soul to the laborious task before him, with that relentless self-exaction, and unsubdued energy, which so strongly marked his character.

With these intentions it appears, that having, in the first instance, taken a review of the state of his mind as to practical religion, and had recourse to some peculiar devotional exercises, and thus silenced the repinings of earthly sorrow, in the exalted anticipations of a blissful eternity, he sketched out the following plan of business, as a means of guarding against confusion, in the distribution of his time.

"An imperfect Scheme of Business for the next half year; that is, till the vacation.

"I AM now to consider myself in the treble view of a Pastor, a Tutor, and a Student; and my scheme must be laid with a regard to the duties of each.

"I am sensible that it will be difficult to unite them all; and I apprehend that my course in general

must be this.

"I will usually rise at about five o'clock, and study till the time of morning prayer, which will be half past eight. The forenoon will generally be employed in Lectures. If I dine very moderately, I may secure a little time before I go out in the afternoon; but the business, from two till six, will be to attend upon my people. I shall generally read a lecture in the evening, and will retire as early as I can; but will take care to give the family prayer so soon, as to have a little retirement between that and bed-time. “On this scheme I proceed as follows:

“As a Tutor,—1. I propose generally to read about ten lectures in a week; allowing one morning and one afternoon vacant. And accordingly, for Geometry, I propose to proceed with the first geometrical class, to the end of the second book of Wetstein's Euclid; and perhaps to enter a little on Archimedes. With the other class, to carry them through the four first books of Euclid and Algebra.

"2. For Hebrew, I hope to go through some little part of Genesis, select prophecies, and a sentence at the end of Robertson; besides the paradigms of the

verses, and the index of those roots which occur more than twenty times in the grammar.

"3. I hope to end upon Oratory, and to have some exercises of Reading, and Speaking; and to go over a short scheme of Logic, as preparatory to Mr. Jennings's, which will be the work of the next half year.

"4. I propose to end Geography, and to proceed about six lectures in Civil History, reserving the rest to the next half year. Perhaps we may attend to Ancient Geography, consulting Wills upon that subject.

"5. I propose to spend some time every day in reading the classics; the Latin one day, and the Greek the next. We shall probably be employed in reviewing some Satires of Horace, and Juvenal, with select passages from Virgil, Pliny, and perhaps Plautus, Sallust of the Jugurthian War, and, if possible, the rest of Persius. For the Greek, select passages in Delectus Tabularum, a little of Homer, and at least one Oration of Isocrates.

"6. For Academical Exercises, translations of some scenes in Terence, from Tully's book of Friendship; some select Orations in Sallust, and Epistles from Pliny, with some passages in the Spectator, and Guardian, to be turned into Latin.

"7. Devotional Lectures every Month.

"II. As a Pastor, I will visit my People both in town and country, throughout the whole Congregation, allowing, as I before said, the Afternoon for that purpose, and generally going into the country on Thursdays. I will have a peculiar regard to the

young people, for whom I propose to draw up a catechism. I will expound on Friday nights, at the vestry. Perhaps I may also expound before the morning service, and catechize before that of the afternoon.

"III. As a private Student,-I must be making some preparations for the Lectures of the next half year; particularly by reading over Watts's Logic, and Locke, besides attending to Mr. Jennings's Logic. I must also complete the Hebrew vocabulary, and read some of the classics by myself, particularly, if it be possible, Lucan's and Plato's Dialogues.

"For Divinity, I hope to end Cradock on the Old Testament, and to make some pretty good progress in Beza on the New; and to be every day reading some little portion of a Practical Writer; and that, though I am sensible that it can be but little. Besides others, I hope to dispatch Mr. Philip Henry's Life, Dr. Owen on the Mortification of Sin in Believers, Tillotson to p. 620, Howe's Carnality of Religious Contention, and Discourses on Union among Protestants, and the other tracts in his works, to the end of his Reformation Sermon, Baxter of Making Light of Christ, of Faith and Judgment, of Repentance and Right Rejoicing, besides the review of his Gildas Salvianus, Burnet's Pastoral Care, Barks's Pastor Evangelicus, Clark's Sermons, and Dr. Bates's Miscellaneous Sermons."

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