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Away! dive deep into the brine,
Where never yet sunk plummet-line;
Trust me, the vast leviathan
Is merciful, compared with man;
Avoid his arts, forsake the beach,
And never play within his reach.
My soul her bondage ill endures;
I pant for liberty like
I long for that immense profound,
That knows no bottom and no bound;
Lost in infinity, to prove
The incomprehensible of Love.
Ye Birds! that lefsen as ye fly,
And vanish in the distant sky;
To whom yon airy waste belongs,
Resounding with your cheerful songs;
Haste to escape from human fight;
Fear less the vulture and the kite.
How bleft and how secure am I, When quitting earth, I soar on high ; When lost, like you I disappear,
I And Aoat in a sublimer sphere ! Whence falling, within human view, I am ensnared, and caught like you. Omniscient God, whose notice deigns To try the heart and search the reins; Compassionate the numerous woes, I dare not, e'en to thee, disclose; Oh, save me from the cruel hands Of men, who fear not thy commands !
Love, all-fubduing and divine,
Care for a creature truly thine ;
Reign in a heart, disposed to own
No sovereign but thyself alone;
Cherish a bride who cannot rove,
Nor quit Thee for a meaner love !
28. THE VICISSITUDES EXPERIENCED
IN THE CHRISTIAN LIFE.
SUFFER fruitless anguish day by day,
Each moment, as it passes, marks my
Scarce knowing whither, doubtfully I stray,
And see no end of all that I sustain.
The more I strive the more I am withstood;
Anxiety increasing every hour,
My spirit finds no rest, performs no good,
And nought remains of all
My peace of heart is fled, I know not where;
My happy hours, like shadows, pass’d away;
Their sweet remembrance doubles all my care,
Night darker seems, succeeding such a day.
Dear faded joys and impotent regret,
What profit is there in incessant tears ?
Oh Thou, whom once beheld, we ne'er forget,
Reveal thy Love, and banish all my
Alas! He flies me-treats me as his foe,
Views not my sorrows, hears not when I plead;
Woe such as mine, despised, neglected woe,
Unless it shortens life, is vain indeed.
Pierced with a thousand wounds, I yet survive ;
My pangs are keen, but no complaint transpires ;
And, while in terrors of thy wrath I live,
Hell seems to lose its less tremendous fires.
Has Hell a pain I would not gladly bear,
So thy severe displeasure might subside ?
Hopeless of ease, I seem already there,
My life extinguish’d, and yet death denied.
Is this the joy so promised ?—this the love,
The unchanging love, so sworn in better days ?
Ah! dangerous glories ! shown me, but to prove
How lovely Thou, and I how rash to gaze.
Why did I see them? had I still remain'd
Untaught, still ignorant how fair thou art,
My humbler wishes I had soon obtain'd,
Nor known the torments of a doubting heart.
Deprived of all, yet feeling no desires,
Whence then, I cry, the pangs that I sustain ?
Dubious and uninform’d, my soul inquires,
Ought she to cherish, or shake off her pain.
Suffering, I suffer not; sincerely love,
Yet feel no touch of that enlivening flame;
As chance inclines me, unconcern'd I move,
All times, and all events, to me the same.
I search my heart, and not a wish is there,
But burns with zeal that hated self may
Such is the fad disquietude I share,
A sea of doubts, and self the source of all.
I ask not life, nor do I wish to die ;
And, if thine hand accomplish not my cure,
I would not purchase, with a single sigh,
A free discharge from all that I endure.
groan in chains, yet want not a release ;
Am fick, and know not the distemper'd part;
Am just as void of purpose as of peace;
Have neither plan, nor fear, nor hope, nor heart.
My claim to life, though sought with earnest care,
No light within me, or without me, shows;
Once I had faith, but now in self-despair
chief cordial and my best repose.
My soul is a forgotten thing; she sinks,
Sinks and is lost, without a wish to rise ;
Feels an indifference she abhors, and thinks
Her name erased for ever from the skies.
Language affords not my distress a name,
Yet is it real, and no sickly dream; 'Tis Love inflicts it; though to feel that flame Is all I know of happiness supreme.
When Love departs, a chaos wide and vast,
And dark as Hell, is open'd in the soul;
When Love returns, the gloomy scene is past,
No tempests shake her, and no fears control.
Then tell me why these ages
Oh Love, all excellent, once more appear;
Disperse the shades, and snatch me into day,
From this abyss of night, these floods of fear!
No-Love is angry, will not now endure
A sigh of mine, or suffer a complaint;
He smites me, wounds me,
and withholds the cure; Exhausts
my powers, and leaves me fick and faint. He wounds, and hides the hand that
the blow; He flies, he reappears, and wounds again ;
, Was ever heart that loved thee treated fo? Yet I adore thee, though it seem in vain. And wilt thou leave me, whom, when loft and blind, Thou didst distinguish, and vouchsafe to choose, Before thy laws were written in my mind, While yet the world had all my thoughts and views? Now leave me? when, enamour'd of thy laws, I make thy glory my supreme delight; Now blot me from thy register, and cause A faithful soul to perish from thy sight? What can have caused the change which I deplore? Is it to prove me, if my heart be true? Permit me then, while prostrate I adore, To draw, and place its picture in thy view. ”Tis thine without reserve, most simply thine; So given to thee, that it is not my own; A willing captive of thy grace divine ; And loves, and seeks thee, for Thyself alone.