I should not differ from the dreamy crew You speak of. I profess no other share In the selection of my lot, than this, A ready answer to the will of God
Who summons me to be his organ: all
Whose innate strength supports them shall succeed No better than your sages.
Fest. Such the aim, then, God sets before you; and 'tis doubtless need That he appoint no less the way of praise Than the desire to praise; for, though I hold With you, the setting forth such praise to be The natural end and service of a man,
And think such praise is best attained when man Attains the general welfare of his kind— Yet, this, the end, is not the instrument. Presume not to serve God apart from such Appointed channel as He wills shall gather Imperfect tributes-for that sole obedience Valued, perchance. He seeks not that his altars Blaze-careless how, so that they do but blaze. Suppose this, then; that God selected you TO KNOW (heed well your answers, for Shall meet implicitly what they affirm) I cannot think you dare annex to such Selection aught beyond a steadfast will,
An intense hope, nor let your gifts create Scorn or neglect of ordinary means
Conducive to success-make destiny
Dispense with man's endeavour. Now, dare you search Your inmost heart, and candidly avow
Whether you have not rather wild desire
For this distinction, than security
Of its existence; whether you discern
The path to the fulfilment of your purpose
Clear as that purpose-and again, that purpose Clear as your yearning to be singled out
For its pursuer. Dare you answer this?
Par. (After a pause.) No, I have nought to fear! Who
The secret'st workings of my soul. What though It be so ?—if indeed the strong desire
Eclipse the aim in me ?-if splendour break
Upon the outset of my path alone,
And duskest shade succeed? What fairer seal Shall I require to my authentic mission
Than this fierce energy?—this instinct striving Because its nature is to strive ?-enticed
By the security of no broad course, With no success forever in its eyes!
How know I else such glorious fate my own, But in the restless irresistible force
That works within me? Is it for human will To institute such impulses ?-still less,
To disregard their promptings? What should I
Do, kept among you all; your loves, your cares, Your life-all to be mine? Be sure that God Ne'er dooms to waste the strength he deigns impart! Ask the gier-eagle why she stoops at once
Into the vast and unexplored abyss,
What full-grown power informs her from the first, Why she not marvels, strenuously beating
The silent boundless regions of the sky!
Be sure they sleep not whom God needs! Nor fear Their holding light his charge, when every hour That finds that charge delayed, is a new death. This for the faith in which I trust; and hence I can abjure so well the idle arts
These pedants strive to learn and teach; Black Arts, Great Works, the Secret and Sublime, forsooth-
Let others prize: too intimate a tie
Connects me with our God! A sullen fiend To do my bidding, fallen and hateful sprites To help me what are these, at best, beside God helping, God directing everywhere, So that the earth shall yield her secrets up, And every object shall be charged to strike, Teach, gratify, her master God appoints? And I am young, my Festus, happy and free! I can devote myself; I have a life
To give; I, singled out for this, the One!
Think, think; the wide east, where old Wisdom sprung; The bright south, where she dwelt; the hopeful north, All are past o'er-it lights on me! 'Tis time
New hopes should animate the world, new light Should dawn from new revealings to a race Weighed down so long, forgotten so long; so shall The heaven reserved for us, at last receive Creatures whom no unwonted splendours blind, But ardent to confront the unclouded blaze Whose beams not seldom blessed their pilgrimage, Not seldom glorified their life below.
Fest. My words have their old fate and make faint stand Against your glowing periods. Call this, truth- Why not pursue it in a fast retreat,
Some one of Learning's many palaces; After approved example; seeking there Calm converse with the great dead, soul to soul, Who laid up treasure with the like intent? -So lift yourself into their airy place, And fill out full their unfulfilled careers, Unravelling the knots their baffled skill Pronounced inextricable, true!—but left Far less confused? A fresh eye, a fresh hand, Might do much at their vigour's waning-point; Succeeding with new-breathed and earnest force, As at old games a runner snatched the torch From runner still: this way success might be. But you have coupled with your enterprise, An arbitrary self-repugnant scheme Of seeking it in strange and untried paths. What books are in the desert? writes the sea
The secret of her yearning in vast caves
Where yours will fall the first of human feet? Has Wisdom sate there and recorded aught You press to read? Why turn aside from her To visit, where her vesture never glanced, Now-solitudes consigned to barrenness
By God's decree, which who shall dare impugn? Now-ruins where she paused but would not stay, Old ravaged cities that, renouncing her, She called an endless curse on, so it came- Or, worst of all, now-men you visit, men, Ignoblest troops that never heard her voice, Or hate it, men without one gift from Rome Or Athens, these shall Aureole's teachers be! Rejecting past example, practice, precept,
Aidless 'mid these he thinks to stand alone:
Thick like a glory round the Stagyrite
Your rivals throng, the sages: here stand you! Whate'er you may protest, knowledge is not Paramount in your love; or for her sake You would collect all help from every source- Rival or helper, friend, foe, all would merge
In the broad class of those who showed her haunts, And those who showed them not.
Par. Festus, from childhood I have been possessed By a fire-by a true fire, or faint or fierce, As from without some master, so it seemed, Repressed or urged its current: this but ill Expresses what I would convey—but rather
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