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lawfully begotten, an annuity of fifty pounds Sterling left me, and my beirs and adminiftrator's for ever, by the last-will and testament of W-m T-s, Elq: my father's brother, payable out of his real estate; renainder to my dearly beloved fifter Sophia, and my brothers and sisters according to their respective ages. And this I leave to my dearly beloved Miss Charlotte C-m, as a testimony of the love and affection I have long borne toward her, and the high sense I have of her piety, chastity, and virtue ; and desire the will accept of this small legacy, in token of the pure and virtuous love she has long had for me as her defined husband, and out of regard to the memory of one, who, though unworthy of her love, yet, in his greatest madness, and most pro: fligate rambles, could never forget her, and loved with an unblemished affection to the end of his days."
After my friend had finished his letters and will, he addressed me as follows. My dear Mr Nu, I bless the God of my life and of all my mercies, who has spared my life, notwithstanding all my horrid provocations, so long till I have had time to pay my last duty to those who have a just title to be informed of the concerns of my soul, and to settle, my temporal affairs in a way very agreeable to my own inclinations. Though formerly I assumed the mark of an hypocrite to, hide my detestable lewdness, that it might not reach the ears of my pious and revered parents, or bring upon me, the epithet of a rake; yet I have not now concealed from
friends the ob. scenity and sensuality of my past life. I have plainly related the worst of myself, as a warning to my brothers and sisters not to split upon the fatal rock on which I suffered a miserable shipwreck. As I durft not conceal my vileness, neither was I
at liberty to bury the glorious displays of fovereign grace to the most notorious offender that perhaps ever lived. Blessed be the God of falvation, that he hath visited and redeemed me, and not suffered me to die in raving madness, and in all the distracting horrors of fearful defpair, as I have read in the account of the lives of the two Spiras, who, I think, were less tranfgreffors than me.
Bleffed be God I was from eternity regittered among the elect, and written among the living in Jerufalem; that when I had destroyed my felt, and was feemingly ruined for ever, beyond hope of relief, grace ftept in, and said, Deliver his soul from going down to the pit; for I have found a ransom; that the Spirit of the Lord breathed on my dry bones, and I was raised from the grave of spiritual death, in virtue of the fame great power that raised the Lord Jesus from the dead; that the Spirit of life entered into me, and I rose up and praised the marvellous inercy and wonderful salvation of my adorable Redeemer; that he has been with me under my long and languishing illness, comforting me with the consolations of his Spirit which are not few, and making me lead rather a life in heaveu, than one spent in a conflict with the devil, and the remainders of corruption in my own heart. I am amply recompensed for the fix weeks of hell that I passed in horrible agonies of conscience, and fearful forebodings of the wrath to come. I live under the smiles of heaven; and the manifestations of the love and grace of my adorable Savio!!r continue to refreth my soul, and excite in me the most ardent defires to be with him in all the ecstatic ràptures of everlasting bliss. I have done with the world, and all its enjoyments. My hope is in God, and his blessed word. I wait now in the joyful expectation of being released from
mortality, and of ascending to the Lord mysGod. I have the valley and shadow of death to pass through, and to cross the Jordan that feparates the land above from this world of fin and misery; but God, my covenanted God, will be with me in the dark valley, and will waft me over the raging billows of the fea of death. I shall have the staff of faith in my hand, my role dependence shall be on the immaculate righteousness of Meffiah the Prince, and my landing shall be in the region where glory blooms in perpetual verdure, and happiness is ever fragrant,
There on a green and flow'ry mount,
My weary soul fball fit,
The labours of my feet.
Nor trifles vex my ear ;
And God rejoice to hear.
That brought me safely through:
And endless praise renew.
Another letter written by Mr T-s. A prayer faid by him on his death-bed, which the author
overheard; with his affectionate address to him. Next morning after writing the letters inserted
in the preceding chapter, my friend addresfed me thus. “Dear Mr Nu, I perceive myself to be every day weaker,' which indicates that the time of my departure is at hand. I am strongly
impressed with the belief that I shall drop mortality in the morning of Sunday se'ennight (this was a Saturday], and observe the remainder of that sacred day in the court of the exalted Redeemer, who was dead, but is now alive, and liveth for evermore, and bath the keys of hell and of death. I must therefore work diligently while time continueth; and improve every day Provi. dence allows me, for promoting my best interests, and those of others, to whom I have any prospect of being useful. I have wrore a letter to 'my next brother; and I think it will not be inproper also to write one to my dear fifter Sophia. This girl is about the fame age with my amiable coulin Charlotte ; she is poffeffed of every valu. able accomplishment both of body and of mind; is of a sweet disposition, and makes a graceful appearance. She very much resembles me, and has always borne a very great affection to me, She is the confident of her cousin Charlotte, and they are useful and affectionate companions to one another. I have good reason to think from what I observed myself, from what I learn from her own letters, and the accounts transmitted to me from Charlotte, that she has from her childhood known the holy scriptures, and that the faith which dwelt in her religious progenitors, also dwells in her. You will find a small bundle of her letters to me, with my answers, in my scrutoire, which you may read after my decease. From these you will form an idea of the good sense and piety of this dear girl. She has had feveral suitors among the gentlemen of our country, none of whom were defpifable ; but her cousin C-bts, Esq; pow an eminent merchant in early gained her affections; and fhe will shortly be married to him, with the confeat of her parents. The marriage has been post
poned, in expectation of my return. As she is therefore on the eve of marriage with that worthy young genileman, in whom I hope the will be very happy, I don't think it will be lost labour to suggest a few advices to her relative to the intend. ed change of her condition." He accordingly wrote her the following letter.
To Miss T-S.
My dear Sister, Your
Our name fignifies wisdom. O O may you be
wise unto salvation. You ought never to think of this name without reflecting on the perfonal Wisdom of God, the Lord Jefus Christ, who lay in the bosom of the Father from eternity, was a member and privy to all the glorious transactions of the counsel of peace, consented to come into our world, affume human nature, fulfil all righteousness, and finish his obedience on the cross, thereby to procure eternal redemption for all whom he represented, as Second Adam, in the covenant of grace. This he did, and exhi. bited displays of the wisdom, love, and grace
of God, that will be matter of praise and admiration to men and angels, in the house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens. O let Sophia begin to wonder at this surprising scene, as a prelude to her joining with the ransomed race in the song of the Lamb. If you don't wonder now, you will howl hereafter. But I hope you are espoused as a chaste virgin to Christ, and have learned to sing the songs of Zion in this strange land.
I have already, in Teveral letters, all of which you will see, given a particular account of may debauched life for some years paft, the merciful restraint laid upon my furious career to hell, and of my thorough converfion to God; fo that it is