and opened the Bible on the 42nd Psalm, 11th verse, "Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope thou in God, for I shall yet praise him who is the health of my countenance and my God." Towards morning my stubborn will gave way a little, and I had a sweet sleep. It is a mercy to know our sins to go before hand to judgment, and to feel the poor tossed mind stayed on a faithful Creator.

2nd mo. 5th, 1825. Standing by the grave of J. M., I felt a necessity to expose myself. I returned home with the reward of which humbled my mind under a sense of forgiveness for my former withholding.

peace,

10th mo. 11th. Returned from Kent, where I spent about nine weeks pleasantly, and I hope not grown worse in best things.

11th mo. 2nd. I have had for about a week past a violent attack of nervous head-ache; my outward prospects on account of health are dull and gloomy. Oh! may my soul be more firmly established on that Rock that is both sure and stedfast.

13th. After feeling a pressing necessity I kneeled down by poor afflicted J. M.'s bedside, and I hope rightly petitioned for him and myself, that we might not be forsaken in old age and affliction. The reflection of this opportunity afforded me much satisfaction.

1826, 9th mo. 18th. Returned from Ashford where I had spent six weeks much to my satisfaction, and three weeks at Folkstone-part of the time in illness, which though painful was not unprofitable,-wherein

I had to admire the tender dealings of the Most High; I have no reason to regret my visit to this place, I was by myself, which is what I have long wished to be, and I was favoured with some sweet refreshing seasons in my secret retirements.

1st mo. 26th, 1827. O thou who hast in abundant mercy condescended to be the guide of my early age, when under the care of tender parents, I have abundant cause to commemorate thy lovingkindness and Fatherly care over me: if I had been in all things faithful to thy commands, how would my peace have flowed as a river, although I have painfully to reflect on many omissions and commissions, I have many times experienced that there is mercy with Thee that Thou mayst be feared. And now I pray thee to be the support of my old age. Oh! cause my mind to be fixed on Thee, Thou everlasting rock of ages.

4th mo. 4th. Thou who hast all power in thy hand, in heaven and on earth, oh! that it would please thee so to humble my heart, that I might have no will of my own, but feel perfect resignation to thy holy will in all things, Thou hast promised a blessing to the poor in spirit, forget not one who is as a worm and no man before thee. The distressing pain in my head is very trying to bear, grant patience, and cause it to prove as a refiner's fire and as a fuller's soap.

7th mo. 16th. This morning the pain in my head was very distressing, I was low, thinking the awful summons was at hand. I was however favoured to feel calm and quiet, and endeavoured to pray for perfect

resignation, and "that I might die the death of the righteous, and that my last end might be like his.”

Perusing the writings of our worthy predecessors often proves instructive. My heart was affected this day in reading some of the life of John Crook, where I found this striking passage, which he copied from the margin of an old Bible, printed about the year 1599, "When the mind thinks nothing, when the soul covets nothing, and the body acteth nothing contrary to the will of God, this is perfect sanctification."

) TO A FRIEND.

MY DEAR FRIENd,

Ashford, 1827.

Thy affectionate lines were truly acceptable, it is indeed a consolation to believe we are not alone in the tribulated path. Job Scott calls it "an old beaten path." I well remember your kindness to me long since, and when thou feelst an inclination to drop a mite (as thou callst it) do not withhold; remember the effect of a small instrument formerly, when the command was given to sound the rams' horns, and the people joined in the shout. I believe little offerings are as humiliating to give up to as longer testimonies, and if it is all that is required, the reward is sure.

[Speaking of her apprehension of duty to appear in meetings, she says,] The awful engagement has been a gradual exercise to me from early life, none knew the pantings of my heart; I could not let Him go, and my stubborn, disobedient will would not give up

to serve Him freely; if my life had been required, it would have been an easier sacrifice. I have for many months and years gone bowed under these humiliating feelings, begging that the impression might be taken from me, and laid on some one more fit. I have abundant cause to admire and reverence the Great Name, that His preserving arm has been round about, and His tender mercies are lengthened out still. I much desire, my dear friend, to be preserved from a wish to live on the labour of others, but to be resigned to do the work assigned me, and to be strengthened, now in my declining age, and made sensible of forgiveness for many omissions that are passed, (oh! what a happy state!) and in future to make strait steps to the land of rest. I should like thee to mention the subject of my leaving Tottenham to; I have a great opinion of her judgment, and love her much; she will, I hope, as well as thyself, weigh the matter for me; it seems no light thing; and if she or thyself have a few words for me, it will be acceptable: if it is reproof, I can bear it, and if encouragement, I hope it will do me good. When thou art favoured with ability for prayer, or panting for preservation, remember thy poor unworthy friend,

MARY HAGger.

[This year, 1827, she removed to Ashford, within the compass of Folkstone Monthly Meeting, and was re-acknowledged a member of the Select Meeting in 5th mo. 1830.]

3rd mo. 19th. I arrived safe at Newington, and found

my dear children well. Not having been at Tottenham for a considerable time, I felt a renewed regard for many friends whom I had known and loved, many years before I left, I called and took leave of several, in two families a few words arose as a sacrifice called for, and obedience procured the reward.

Looking towards our little meeting at Ashford, my mind is affected with weighty reflections, how shall so poor a creature as I go in and out, so as to give no occasion of stumbling to the honest inquirer. Truly the fields appear white unto harvest in many places, may the Great Husbandman be pleased, in the riches of his love to raise up, qualify, and send many faithful labourers into his harvest. Oh! for a deeper sense of gratitude than I have yet known. Great and marvellous are thy works, O Lord, past finding out by thy poor creatures!

After my return home, I fell into much poverty of spirit, I seemed to have no strength to feel after what I had so often coveted, and striving to wait in the quiet, these words presented, "I am a stranger in the earth, hide not thy commandments from me." "Will the Lord cast off for ever? will he be favourable no more? Is his mercy clean gone for ever? Doth His promise fail for ever more? Hath God forgotten to be gracious? Hath He in anger shut up his tender mercies?" These words of the Psalmist raised in me similar pantings of heart. Mayst Thou, O Lord! be my shield, and the lifter up of my head.

8th mo. 1st. We were favoured with a visit from J. H, of Lancashire, who is visiting the county.