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Mr Clayton is a very popular man,
sir-very good, and speaks the truth."
"He is good indeed," I answered.
"Sir, grace is sure to follow you
now. It is fifteen years since I first
sat under Mr Clayton! Ah, I remem-
ber the night I was converted, as if it
were yesterday. I always felt, up to
that very time, the need of something
better than I had got. Business had
gone wrong ever since I opened shop,
and my mind was quite unsettled.
Satan tried very hard at me, but it
wouldn't do. Sometimes, when my
boy had gone home, and shop was
shut up, the Tempter would whisper
in my ears words like these- Jehu,
you're insured, over and over again,
for your stock; let a spark fall on the
shavings, and your fortune's made,'
Well, sir, once or twice-will you be
lieve it?-the Devil had nearly got it
all his own way; but grace prevented,
and I was saved. I owe it all to Mr
Clayton. I was told by one or two of
my customers to go and hear him, but
somehow or other I never did. Satan
kept me back. At last the gentleman
as was the deacon-him as built the
chapel-Mrs Jehu Tomkin's father
comes to my shop with his daughter,
Mrs Jehu as is now, and spoke to me
about the minister. Well, I heard the
old gentleman was very rich and pious,
and I went the next Sabbath-day as
was, with his family, into his pew. I
never went any where else after that.
He seemed to hit the nail just on the
head, and I was convinced-ob, quite
wonderful!-all on a sudden. I was
married to Mrs Jehu before that day
twelvemonth. So you see grace fol-
lowed me throughout, as it will you,
my dear brother, if you only mind
what you are about, and don't be a
backslider."

"Mr Clayton," said I, "has kindly
promised to procure employment for
me."

"Ah! and he'll do it, if he says
"That's
so," rejoined Mr Tomkins.
your man. You stick to him, and you
won't hurt. He's a chosen vessel, if
What do you
ever there was one.
say, brother Buster?"

Brother Buster simply groaned his
assent, and scowled. He had been
for some time anxious to depart, and
he now took his leave without further

ceremony.

"You wouldn't think that man was a saint to look at him, would you?"

asked the deacon, as soon as his friend
"He is though. He is
was gone.
riper in spiritual matters than any
man I know. Ah! the Establishment
would give something for a few like
him. He'll be taken from us, I fear.
We make a idol of him, and that's
sure to be punished. It's wonderful
what he knows; and how it has come
to him we can't tell."

I received a pressing invitation from
Mr Tomkins to visit his "small and
'appy family," as he was pleased to
call it, on any evening after eight
o'clock, which was his latest business
hour.

"Mrs Jehu," I was assured,
"was just like her father, and his four
small Jehus as exactly like their grand-
father, and he wished to say no more
for them.

After business his family enjoyed invariably a little spiritual refreshment, and that and a hymn made the time pass very agreeably till supper-time at nine, when he had a 'ot collation, at which he should be most proud to see me."

To all the charges that have been at various times, with more or less virulence and disinterestedness, brought against the Church of England, that of assuming to itself the divine attribute of searching the secret heart of man has, I believe, never been superadded. It has remained for men very far advanced indeed in spiritual knowledge and perfection, to assert the bold prerogative, and to venture, unappalled, beneath the frown of heaven.

The close scrutiny, on the part of Mr Buster, proper as it was as a step preliminary, was by no means sufficient to procure for me an easy and unquestioned admission into the church which the blacksmith had so ably represented. There was yet another trial to ensue, and another He had yet jury to pronounce upon the merits of the anxious candidate. to prove to the perfect satisfaction of the self-constituted junto, that styled itself a church, how God had mercifully dealt with him—to detail, with historic accuracy, the method and procedure of his regeneration, and to find evidence of a spiritual change, that carried on its front the proof of his conversion and his accepted state. All this was to be done before I could be entitled to the privileges which Messrs Buster, Tomkins, and the rest, had it in their power to bestow. The manner in which this delicate investi

gation was carried on, its indecorum and profaneness, I never can forget; nor can I, in truth, remember it with out humiliation and deep sorrow. Against the indiscreet, illegal exhibition, I set off my ignorance, simplicity, and desire of serving heaven; and in these I place my hope of pardon for the share I had in such proceedings.

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I received, in due form, a requisition to appear before the body of the church, at its general meeting. appeared. The chapel was thronged, the majority of members being women. In the hands of nearly every third person was a printed paper. I was not then aware of its contents; if I had been, the ceremony would, in all probability, have concluded with my entrance. Will it be believed, that this paper contained a printed formula of the questions which were to test the quality of my faith, and to pronounce upon the vitality and worth of my spiritual pretensions! Any person present was at liberty to address me, and to form his own opinion of my case from the manner and the matter which

their ingenuity elicited. At the suggestion of Mr Tomkins, who, in his capacity of deacon, was remarkably active on this occasion, it was deemed proper that I should enter upon my "experience" at once. My heart fluttered as I rose to comply with the demand, and the chapel was hushed. It will be sufficient to say, that I repeated my entire history, and secured the attention of my auditory until I had spoken my last word. There were parts of the narrative which I could, with a glance, perceive to be peculiarly piquant and acceptable. As these occurred, a rustling and a murmur expressed the subdued applause. When, for instance, I mentioned the disgust which I had conceived for the University upon losing the scholarship, and the uneasiness which I afterwards felt as long as I continued a member of that community, a few of the most acute looked at one another, and shrugged mysteriously, as who should say, "How wondrous are the ways of Providence!" and when I arrived at the point of my deliverance by the hand of their own minister, there would have been, I thought, no end to the gesticulations, expressions of gratitude and joy, that burst from the "church," in spite of the praiseworthy efforts of the minister to con

trol and keep them down. When I had concluded, and whilst the halfsuppressed rejoicing still buzzed in the chapel, the stern Buster rose, and presented to me the unmitigated force of his unpleasant eye. Silence prevailed immediately.

"Now, sir," said my old friend, "what makes you think yourself a child of grace? Speak out, if you please; I'm rather deaf."

"The loathing that I feel of what I was."

"Good!" said Jehu Tomkins, with strong emphasis, and loud enough to be heard by every one.

"When did you feel the fetters fust busting from your spirit?" "Not till I heard the minister's kind voice," was the reply.

"Do you always feel as strong upon the subject? Do you feel your spirit always willing?'

"Oh, no," I answered; "there are dreadful fluctuations, and there is nothing so uncertain as self-dependence. I have dark and bitter moments, when I feel, in all its power, the melancholy truth—' When I would do good, evil is present with me.""

"Capital sign!—capital sign!" exclaimed Jehu Tomkins again; "quite suflicient!-quite sufficient!"

Yes, it was so. A few questions were put to me by individuals, rather for the sake of gratifying an impertinent curiosity, than that of elucidating further proof of my proficiency, and the ceremony was finished by my formal reception into the body of the church. A prayer was offered, an address delivered, a hymn sung-the eyes of many ladies were turned with smiling interest upon me-and the meeting separated. Jehu Tomkins was the first to congratulate me upon the happy issue of my trial.

"You are a made man, sir, depend upon it," said he, with his first salutation. "You can't fail. There-do you see that fat man that's just going out-him as has got on the Indy 'ankycher?-I sold him that he came on purpose to hear you, and if he found you up to the mark, he's going to provide for you. He belongs to all our societies, and just does what he pleases. His word's a law. We've à boiled leg of mutton at nine to-night. Suppose you come to us, and finish the day there? Bless me, what a full meeting we've had! Here's a squeez

ing!" There was certainly some difficulty in our egression. The people had gathered into a crowd at the small doorway, and men jostled and made their way without regard to others in their vicinity. Lost as I was in the indiscriminate host, a few observations fell upon my ear that were not, I presume, especially intended for it.

"Well," said a greasy youth, not many yards distant from me, "I doubt his having had a call. There wasn't life enough in it for me. I shouldn't be surprised if he's a black sheep after all. I wish I had put a question or two to him. I think I could have shown Satan in his heart pretty quick."

"Now you say it," replied the person addressed, "I did think him very backward and lukewarm. I didn't like his tone altogether. Ah! what a thing experimental religion is! You know what it is, and so do I; but I werry much fear that delooded young man is as carnal-minded as my mother was, that went to hell, though I say it, as contented and unconcerned as if she was going to the saints in glory."

The information conveyed to me by Mr Tomkins as we issued from the chapel was not unfounded. The very day subsequent to my admittance into the bosom of the church, I was requested to attend the minister in the sanctum already referred to. Upon reaching it, I discovered the fat gentleman of the preceding evening, dressed as he was on the previous occasion, and still adorned with Jehn's India handkerchief. Both he and Mr Clayton were seated at table, and writing materials were before them. The moment I entered the apartment, the fat gentleman held out his hand, and shook mine with much stateliness. My friend, however, addressed me.

"Caleb," said he, "we are at length able to fulfil our promise. It is my pleasure to announce to you that a situation is procured for you, suitable to your talents, and agreeable to your feelings. We are both of us indebted to this good gentleman. In your name I have already thanked him, and in your name I have accepted the office which he has been at some pains to obtain for you."

I looked towards the stout gentleman, and bowed in grateful acknowledgment.

Tell him the duties, Clayton,"

requested my new-found influential friend.

"Mr Bombasty," proceeded the minister, "feels a warm interest in your welfare. The happy result of yesterday's trial has secured for you a friendship which it will be your duty and study to deserve. There is established, in connexion with our church, a Christian instruction society, of which Mr Bombasty is the esteemed and worthy president. The appointment of a travelling secretary rests with him, and he has this very day nominated you to that distinguished office. I have tendered your thanks. You can now repeat them." "Tell him the salary," interrupted the president.

"You will receive one hundred and fifty pounds per annum," continued Mr Clayton, in addition to your travelling charges; apartments likewise, I believe "- He hesitated as if uncertain, and looked towards the president.

"Yes," replied that gentleman, "go on-coals and candles. You answer for him, Clayton-eh?"

"As I told you, sir," said my friend, "I will pledge myself for his trustiness and probity."

The remembrance of Mr Chaser's cold-hearted cruelty occurred to my mind as my benefactor spoke, and tears of gratitude trembled in my eyes. The fat gentleman remarked the expression of feeling, and brought the interview to a close.

Let a

"Well, Clayton," said he, "you can talk to him. I've twenty places to go to yet. Get the paper signed, and he may begin at once. lawyer draw it up. Just make yourself security for a thousand poundsI don't suppose he'll ever have more than half that at a time in his possession-and that'll be all the society will require. He can come to me tomorrow. Now I'm off. Good-bye, my friend-'morning, young man." The last adieu was accompanied with a patronizing nod of the head, which, with the greeting on my first appearance, constituted the whole of the intercourse that passed between me and my future principal. The moment that he departed, I turned to Mr Clayton, and thanked him warmly and sincerely for all that he had accomplished for me.

"I shall leave you, sir," I added,

"with mingled feelings of regret and satisfaction-regret in separating from the purest and the best of men, my friend, my counsellor, and fatherbut joy, because I cease to be a burden upon your charity and good-nature. I carry into the world with me the example of your daily life, and my own sense of your dignified and exalted character. Both will afford me encouragement and support in the vicissitudes which yet await me. Tell me how I may better evince my gratitude, and let me gratify the one longing desire of my overflowing heart."

"Caleb," replied the minister, with solemnity, "it is true that I have been permitted to protect and serve you. It is true that, but for me, at this moment you would be beyond the reach of help and man's regard. I have brought you from the grave to life. I have led you to the waters of life, of which you may drink freely, and through which you will be made partaker with the saints, of glory everlasting. This I have done for you. Do I speak in pride? Would I rob Heaven and give the praise and honour to the creature? God forbid. I have accomplished little. I have done nothing good and praiseworthy but as the instrument of Him whose servant and whose minister I am. Not for myself, but for my Master's sake, I demand your friendship and fidelity. If I have been accounted worthy to save your soul, I am not unworthy of your loyalty and love."

It is my

"They are yours, sir. happiness to offer them." "Caleb," continued my friend, in the same tone," you have lived with me many months. Mine is a life of privacy and retirement compared with that of other men. I strive to be useful to my fellow-creatures, and am happy if I succeed. If any one may claim immunity from slander and reproach, it is I, who have avoided diligently all appearance of offence. Yet I have not succeeded. You are about to mix again with men. joined the church, and you will not You have fail to hear me spoken of harshly and injuriously."

"Impossible!" I exclaimed.

"Yes, it would seem so, and it would be, if justice in this world accompanied men's acts. I tell you," continued Mr Clayton, flushing as he

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raised his voice, "there are men living now whom I have raised from beggary and want-men, indebted to lumniate and defame me through the me for the air they breathe, who ca world, and who will not cease to do dust. They owed me every thing, so till I or they are sleeping in the like you-their gratitude was bounded, even as yours. hardly by your friend as they have rance have I that you will not deal as done, and still do?"

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What assu

"I would lay down my life to serve
“Mr Clayton," I answered, eagerly,
you."

honest, Caleb.
"I believe you to be frank and
for I am about to pledge a heavy sum
I should believe it;
upon your integrity-and, indeed, I
I would have you show your thank-
can but ill spare it. You ask me how
fulness for what I have accomplished
for you.

your friendship. It is a holy word,
I answer, by giving me
and comprehends more than is sup
posed.

is spoken of him to whom he is united
A friend believes not ill that
by mutual communion and interest;
he is faithful to the end, through good
report and evil, and falls, if need be,
his troth and given his heart."
with the man to whom he has engaged

stand in this relation with one so
"I am unworthy, sir," I said, "to
good, so holy as yourself. I have
but a word to say-trust and confide
in me. I will never deceive you."

"Let us pray," said Mr Clayton, after a long pause, sighing as he spoke, and speaking very softly-and and I, according to a practice which immediately he fell upon his knees, I had acquired at the chapel, leaned upon a chair, and turned my face to the window.

It was about a month after my
business connected with the society
installation into my new office, that
carried me to the village of Highgate.
commission was completed, and I was
It was late in the evening when my
enabled, after a day of excessive fa-
homeward. The stage-coach, which
tigue, to direct my steps once more
set out from the village for London
twice during the day, luckily for me,
about half an hour after my engage-
was appointed to make its last journey
ments had set me at liberty. A mile,
and the coach-office.
across fields, intervened between me
Short as the

distance was, it was any thing but an agreeable task to get over it, with the rain spitting into my face, the boisterous wind beating me back, and the darkness of a November night confounding me at every turn. In good time, however, I reached the inn. Providence favoured me. There were but two seats unoccupied in the coach; one was already engaged by a gentleman who had requested to be taken up a mile forward; the other had just been given up by a lady who had been frightened by the storm, and had postponed her return to London to the following day. This seat I immediately secured, and in a few minutes afterwards we were on our way towards Babylon. We made but little progress. The breed of coach horses has been much improved since the period of which I write, and a journey from Highgate to London was a much more important event than a railway conductor of the present day would suppose. My companions were all men. Their conversation turned upon the topics of the day. A monetary crisis had taken place in the mercantile world, and for many days I had heard nothing spoken of but the vast losses which houses and individuals of high character and standing had incurred, and the bankruptcy with which the community had become suddenly threatened. The subject had grown stale and wearisome to me. It had little interest, in fact, for one whose humble salary of one hundred and fifty pounds per annum depended so little upon the great fluctuations of commerce, and I accordingly disposed myself for sleep as soon as the words bills, money, and bankruptcy, became the staple matter of discourse. I had scarcely established a comfortable doze before the coach stopped suddenly, and awoke me. It had halted for the last inside. gentleman, apparently stout and well wrapped up—it was impossible to speak positively on the subject, the night was so very dark-trod his way into the vehicle over the toes of his fellow-passengers, and took his seat. The coach was once more moving towards the metropolis, and again I endeavoured to lull myself to sleep. The same expressions proceeded from the lips of the travellers, and they were growing more and more indistinet and shadowy, when I was start

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led all on a sudden by one of the most palpable sounds that had ever disturbed and confounded a dreamer. I sat up and listened, coughed to convince myself that I was certainly awake, and the sounds were repeated as clear and as audible as before. I would have sworn that Mr Clayton was the gentleman whom we had last picked up-that he was now in the coach with me-and was now talking, if the words which fell from the traveller had not been such as he would never have used, and the subject on which he spoke had not been one upon which Mr Clayton, I believed, was as ignorant as a child. The resemblance between the voices was so great, that I pronounced the phenomenon the most extraordinary that had ever occurred to me; and growing quite wakeful from the incident, I continued to listen to the accents of the speaker until once or twice I had almost thought it my duty to acquaint him with the remarkable fact, which he was now living to illustrate. But I held my peace, and the conversation proceeded without interruption.

"You may depend upon it," said one gentleman, "things must get worse before they'll mend. Half the mischief isn't done yet. There's a report to-day that cannot hold out much longer. It will be a queer thing if they smash. Many petty tradesmen bank with that house, who will be ruined if they go. Things are certainly in a very sweet state."

"You do not mean," said the voice, trembling with emotion or alarm, "that the house of threatens

to give way? I have been in the city to-day, and did not hear a syllable of this. I think you must be mistaken. Good God, how frightful!"

Well, it was really wonderful! I could have sworn that Mr Clayton was the speaker. Had he not concluded with the ejaculation, my doubt would certainly have ceased. That exclamation, of course, removed the supposition entirely.

"You'll find I'm right, sir," was the reply of the traveller who spoke first. "At least, I fear you will. I hope I may be wrong. If you have any thing in their hands, you would find it worth your while, I think, to pay them an early visit to-morrow morning. If there's a run upon them, nothing in the world can save them."

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